Stone for bread

I just got off the phone with my mom, who told me that someone just made an anonymous donation to my dad so that they can fix my van, which apparently was in worse shape than I thought. This is not the first time He has done something like that this summer. On June 30th, I had over $700 of fundraising come in towards CityLights, a good portion of which was a donation completely unexpected from my grandfather. A couple weeks later, God provided a place to live once CityLights was over. And now...the donation from someone back home towards fixing my car...

So why is still hard to trust Him. Last night I prayed and said, "Prove yourself to me," and in the same prayer said in the same fashion as the father with the sick son in Mark, "I believe, help me in my unbelief!". So here He is proving He was taking care of something I didn't even know about until today. So shouldn't I be leaping for joy? ...in two weeks, I'll need a new home in St. Louis...by Thursday of next week I'll need to have my application for substitute teaching completed & turned in...somehow I have to pay bills...somehow I have to get back to Iowa and when I do figure out how to get around all the places I need to go...

"Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets."
--Matthew 7:9-12


Abba, help me to trust that you will provide for my every need & give me good gifts. Bring me to a place of freedom where I no longer live in my heart as an orphan in poverty, but instead as a beloved daughter of yours who has everything she needs. Give me new eyes to see that, Abba. In Jesus' name, Amen.